Birthday

It's my birthday today. Thank heavens for facebook friends because I actually felt very loved today getting all the birthday wishes on my wall. My next door neighbor brought over fresh bread and cake:) and the relief society presidency brought me over a card and bath salt that said you deserve a break. And I saw a movie with my dad and Curtis and then went out to eat with Curtis went to a nice park with all of the kids and ended up at my friend Meijas house talking about all her life storms. It was a pretty good day no complaints.

Caterpillars

Now I know you can't see them in the pictures but today the boys came in super excited because they found "Caterpillars" and Wiley kept saying "they are so cute mom!" Yeah they were maggots. Now I assure you we don't have maggots in our house, at least that is what I keep telling myself.

2:21 am

Its 2:21 am and why am I up do you ask? I don't know, that's a very good question because I am very tired. I wish that i had a portable computer because all day long I write in my head about what I want or need to say at that moment but by the time I get here its gone. I have no more need to express it and yet at the same time I wish I would have because its memories I would like to capture. Today I had an interview with one of the bishops councilors for a new temple recommend. I think the problem I have is that I want so bad to be perfect and I try so hard that sometimes I am unsure if I am really doing my best to do everything I can. I want to be honest in all my doings but am I really answering all the questions honestly because I over analyze things and I just want to make sure I am. I need to sleep its 2:29 now and it shouldn't take me 8 mins to write nothing.

I don't know why it has taken me forever to write again. Everyday I have something cute to say about the boys and yet I never take time to get on and write about it. Instead I spend time watching stupid movies on netflix and Hullu. So really fast cute things the boys have said. #1. We went to a picnic on Saturday and it was raining and freezing but that is besides the point it was super hero theme and guess what? Super man was there. That's right! Superman! Brayden was so excited. He kept staring at him with big round eyes and saying MOM Superman is here and then he walks up to him and asks "Super man can you fly?" Of course superman was off on the day of the picnic and for the rest of the day Wiley reminded me that superman was flying tomorrow. #2 Wiley was sitting at the table the other night coloring. I was doing something and had my back turned and I could here him saying to him self " eggs come from chickens, milk comes from cows, apple sauce comes from apples and bananas come from monkeys" It was quite funny. #3 okay I can't think of funny things right now because I need to go to bed but I think we are going to adopt Kalem. He has a new adoption worker that says he is not going anywhere. Of course that doesn't mean anything until it is finalized so we will see. Tomorrow we are going to Prescott Valley for a class to learn about Medically fragile so we can get a higher adoption rate. I am hoping I can get it back dated. I have to get up at 5am tomorrow and it is 11:41pm. I am tired and I just don't know why I am not going to sleep. Kalem has been a whinny little boy all day long today and yesterday. He was up all night last night screaming. He got mad last night because I was brushing his teeth. Curtis thinks that's why he was screaming all night because I traumatized him. He could be right. Ineed to sleep Tyce is awake to eat.

Lately I have been reading a lot of blogs and I notice the same things. Women are always talking about their wonderful husband and marriage and how challenging but rewarding motherhood is. Just so every one knows... I hate being married.... thats my problem, Marrage. Not being a mother, I love that and I think I am a good one. But I suck at being a wife.

Karate

Right now Carter is screaming because daddy took Wiley and Brayden to their first karate class. Of course Carter wanted to go but couldn't because Daddy is taking the class too and he cant watch Carter. Before Curtis left for class he said "Who's" and then spelled out G O I N G. I said "The B and the W" meaning Wiley and Brayden and I hear this "YES!!" In the back ground. So I asked Wiley " Why are you so excited?" He says "Because we are going with dad. " So I say "Why do you think that?" and he says "Because you said," "I did?" I asked "Yep!" he says "B for Brayden and W for Wiley." Should I be worried? Cuz it could be lucky guessing although Curtis stood over the balcony the other day and said " Angela" then spelled out I C E C R E A M and Wiley starts yelling "I want ice cream too"

Okay so today is Sunday and I never go any where except church on Sunday but today is general conference which means we stay home and watch it on TV and I just needed to get out of the house. Just for a moment. A drive around the block... that was all I wanted. So at 12pm I put lunch on the table and let Curtis know I was leaving the house without kids. So this is how it went. About give or take timing 12:05 Called Kids for lunch and had 3 prayers for the meal by Brayden, Wiley and Maya. 12:10 already getting Wiley and Brayden seconds, Taking Kalem off the table and put him in his seat 12:15 Tyce is hungry so have to nurse him 12:35 Done nursing and every one is done eating so I clean up the little ones so they don't look like orphan children. Clean up Lunch and tell children they can watch TV 12:45 Take Carter and Kalem up stairs to take a nap 12:50 Take Carter and Kalem downstairs to change two poopy diapers 12:55 Take Carter and kalem back up to take a nap 12:57 Put Kalem down can't find Carters passy 1:10pm found Carters passy and put him in bed 1:15 put Tyce down for a nap 1:17 Tell Curtis I am finally leaving and I get the keys 1:20 Brayden comes up stairs sees me with my shoes on and wants to go (All other awake children still watching TV) 1:22 Take Brayden downstairs to change his poopy diaper 1:27 Done with diaper about to go but other children start to yell in other room 1:28 Go to see what problem is Wiley pressed buttons of TV so I fixed it and but it back to show and sat Brayden down so he could watch TV and I could sneek off without him 1:35 Tyce startes crying upstairs 1:37 Change Tyces poopy diaper nurse him a little more again and put him back to sleep again 1:50 Tell Curtis I am leaving again this time for sure 1:52 Cant find my cell or purse 2pm Get Curtis cell and my extra ID to take just in case 2:02 Finally about to go but Brayden is up wanting to go again 2:05 put Braydens shoes on 2:10 Walk out back door with Brayden so other kids don't see us 2:11 Walk back in with Brayden change Braydens poopy diaper again while thinking "are you kidding me" 2:17 Walk out back door with Brayden to finally get out of house 2 hours later..... Next time I'm just taking all the kids